Small group alienation

Spent another slab of time working on stuff for the Crossroads website. Writing up a set of instructions on how to actually record, edit and upload the talks for church. The bulk of the arvo I spent watching drift (cars) out at Baskerville Raceway with some mates. It was great just relax and have a good laugh. Dinner out with friends and an old mate visiting from Melbourne. Interestingly I find I always feel awkward in groups of people even smaller groups of people I know well. I have this strange sense of alienation and stress I'm going to make a dick of myself trying to be funny and fit in. I'm concluding that I'm more of a one to one person.